Blockage

I'm recently reading an amazing book, one that I was not expecting to be so amazing.  It is "Call Me Crazy" by Anne Heche, the actress.  It is amazing what you can learn about someone when they write their life story down.  It has been an easy read, for the most part, in the sense that it is engaging and to the point. I have read some autobiographies where they are so drawn out and you can tell it's more mental masturbation for the author bc he is enjoying the fact that people will be reading what is being written.  With Anne though, she is writing her feelings, it is not accomplishments and look at how great I am.  She had pain and suffering.  She had a rough child hood and many insecurities.



This resonates with me bc at times, who doesn't feel insecure?  Or long for the feeling of being loved and appreciated by another?  Validation, support, friendship?  This book has shown to me and opened up my eyes to many lovely things - that no matter, and I am going to quote Anne's words "how fucked up you are", you are not alone.  The important thing is to feel those pains or longings, own them.  Make them our own and realize that we are bigger than those feelings or insecurities.  At the end of the day we are the master's of our own domain.

I've become convinced as of late that some people do not allow themselves to love, to let go and embrace the opportunities presented to them by the universe.  People are so afraid to get hurt, they they block their heart or let their brains take over so they do not feel or allow themselves to fall in love.  I've been victim to this on many occasions, and only in hindsight did I realize what a mistake it was to not live in the moment, have fun and have love.  Choosing to not love because of fear of getting hurt only leads to emptiness.  I'm doing my best to remember that relationships can be as short as a day and as long as a lifetime.  Love is the same.

Allow yourself to love in the moment.  Don't ask questions about tomorrow or ten years from now.  Just be present and love and the rest will follow.